College Student Writes Poem About Newtown Massacre

 

Dear Readers: 

 When Emmanuel Catalan, 23, heard about the shootings of 26 first graders and educators in Connecticut, the Floridian was stunned along with everyone else. But when his friends who lived in the impacted state began to call and text him, he detected pain so enmeshed in them that he was even more shaken. The two women, who live in nearby Storrs, hadn't  lost anyone in the tragedy, but were agonizing over it with millions of others.

   From their words, Emmanuel built a poem, perhaps to ease his pain and hopefully theirs.

   "The Connecticut shooting was one of the worst shooting tragedies since the Virginia Tech shooting in 2007," he wrote me via Facebook. "Although I have not personally been affected by this event, I do have two friends who reside in Connecticut. Both of them are emotionally shaken up because of the horror. Hopefully something positive can come out of this awful event. 

   "We can no longer endure another mass shooting the way."

   Catalan, now 23, joined the Boys and Girls Club in San Pedro as a high school  junior carrying only a 1.8 GPA. Once he entered the club's College Bound program, is life turned around.

    Today he's in his senior year at the University of South Florida, majoring in political science with a minor in international studies. He plans to attend law school to first become a lawyer and later a judge as well as an author. He has done many internships, including the Sindhi American Political Action Committee, the Torture Abolition Survivor Support Coalition, and the Empowering Center for Career Development.

 Here is his poem that comes with no name:

The sky covered with clouds looms over our heads,
The ominous storm awaits us ready to rip our joy into shreds,
None of us are remotely prepared for its presence,
Nevertheless it arrives with power far greater than all of the heavens.

The depth of his rage is beyond anyone's measure
And no one has enough to subdue him with their treasure,
Our conduct too depraved for his taste,
So he kills us with loss and disgrace.

He places us back in our own solitude,
So dark and uncertain, no way to be shrewd,
How can we? Our souls were stolen by his murderous deeds.
No incentive to live or plant our own seeds.

I bleed red, but feel no more pain,
A full days rest I've had, and yet I feel drained,
Consumed with so much death I want to cringe,
So much potential now just blows in the wind.

The future lays buried riddled with talons,
Each symbolizing a lost chance for them to show their talents,
Trauma remains with those who remain,
The broken-hearted and those left with so much pain.

Each showering their faces with rain,
Yet there remains nothing to gain.

 

Children Who've Died of Cancer Should be Honored

Mary Lou Martinez, holding a photo of her granddaughter, Devin, wants to create a memorial for Harbor Area children who have died from cancer while living in the industrial Port of Los Angeles.

San Pedro Grandma Decides Kids Who Have Died Here of Cancer Related Illnesses Deserve A Shot At Being Remembered Through A Memorial or Festival; She Just Needs Your Help

By Diana L. Chapman

Devin Hamilton died at the age of 9.

After three years of visiting her 9-year-old granddaughter at her grave, Mary Lou Martinez thought  both of them deserved a better deal. They should be celebrating Devin Hamilton's life with the punctuations of joy she left in people's hearts.

Not in silence. Or in somberness.

That's when it hit. It seemed to Martinez that so many children -- who live in San Pedro tucked along the highly industrialized port of Los Angeles -- had their lives cut short by varying kinds of cancer and that people were forgetting them much too soon. And when they did remember them it was sadness. Not with joy.

She wants to build a way for the community to celebrate those children, she said, and, with the backing of Los Angeles Councilman Joe Buscaino's office, she needs other community members to help her design the "how."

"I just didn't want to visit Devin in the cemetery for the rest of my life," said Martinez, who decorates the grave each holiday. "I just have this vision of some place near the ocean, a great place with a plaque, a place to meet. The sad part is that they died. But the beautiful part is that they lived. And that they were great kids who were loved and are missed."

Diagnosed with leukemia in Aug. 2009, Devin lived less than a year, dying Jan. 26 2010. One of her classmates at Crestwood Street Elementary School, Leo Russo, died in September the same year from Hodgkin's mature b cell lymphoma.

While many  other children have succumbed to cancer related illnesses here, Martinez believes practically everybody in the tight-knit community of San Pedro-- many coming from generations of immigrant families-- knows a family who has lost a child to cancer.  That has brought her on her mission today; she is asking for about six San Pedro residents to step forward and help her create her vision.

"I don't have anything set in stone," admits the grandmother, who babysat Devin daily until she enrolled in preschool age 2. "I want to get input from other people. I have to do it. It's been gnawing at me.

"I feel in my heart, it's going to happen and  it will be great."

It was, in fact, the council office that suggested forming the group when she walked in to tell the staff what she wanted to create. The suggestion: form a six member committee to shape a memorial/festival to honor those children. While the idea is still unclear, the grandmother wants the committee to help her mold  what the memorial -- if in fact it should be a memorial at all -- should be.

 Ideas that have been tossed around so far includes a tree of life that could represent the children, a symbolic statue possibly an angel, a yearly festival, a run, or a combination of all the things above -- or something else entirely different.

The only issue set in stone is that it should be for children, Martinez said.

Jacob Haik, district director for Buscaino's region which covers the entire harbor area and portions of South Los Angeles, said he will support Martinez in any way possible and that a representative from the council office will sit on the committee. Haik said he will attend the first meeting.

 The subject, he said, is close to his heart as his 12-year-old daughter, Crystal is close friends with Blake Marquez. Blake lost her little sister, Paige, 4, to a brain tumor and her parents, Cheryl and Tim Marquez, built a foundation in Paige's memory to help other children afflicted with cancer -- and in particular with brain tumors. Haik also has four of his own children.

"I have talked to her (Martinez) two or three times," Haik said. "We will meet with her and support her absolutely. If I can be so bold, I suggested the committee because we are not event planners. But we can give support with events, tables, chairs. I do see the good it will bring."

Devin's mother, Lori Hamiliton, believes her mom is on the right track with her vision, and hopes the community will help out.

"I do of course think this is a great idea," said Devin's mother. "All the families who have children die are still going through their mourning and to feel we have a community that backs us and cares by supporting this idea is wonderful."

Over the years, studies have been done that children do suffer higher asthma rates and that cancer rates overall are higher living near the Port of Los Angeles-Long Beach complex. A University of Southern California study reflects that ship emissions "contributed to the exacerbation of asthma," USC News reported in 2009.

In 2001, the National Resources Defense Council sued the city and the Port of Los Angeles using environmental laws claiming port emissions from diesel trains, ships and trucks caused premature deaths, cancer, asthma and upper respiratory illnesses via smog and particulate matters. The result was a $50 million mitigation fund to improve air quality at the world's largest port.

"Despite this victory, however, more work needs to be done," the NRDC reported on its website. "The cancer risk from diesel pollution is 60 percent higher from communities close to the Port of Los Angeles and Long Beach than elsewhere in the region, and has steadily increased over the years, while pollution in other areas has dropped."

Since then, the Los Angeles port has undergone  many mitigation measures, including its Clean Trucks Programs  which works progressively to ban polluting trucks from entering the port.

While that battle goes on, Martinez believes San Pedro resident should embrace the lives that have been lost.

"San Pedro is a unique town, a lot like Catalina Island in the way it has familiarized its residents with one another, however, larger than the island," she said. "But as a small community, we know each other and we know the pain of loss, especially the loss of a child.

" How can we not come together as a community and remember and honor our sweet, sweet angels who left us all too soon?"

Anyone interested in serving on the committee can contact Martinez via email: mlmartinez56@gmail.com

Cyberbullying Not Criminal Yet

   Ratchet Page Not an Internet Crime Says Law Enforcement Official Dealing With the Investigation

By Diana L. Chapman

    Images that blossomed on Facebook pages of "ratchet" girls in the Harbor Area in early December were not criminal and were considered child "erotica," rather than pornography, says a lead investigator who heads a regional task force that deals with internet crime against children.

    However, Los Angeles Police Lt. Andrea Grossman reported it as cyberbullying to Facebook and the company removed those sites within one hour of her call.

   No penal codes applied in this instance, Grossman explained.

   "It's not a criminal act," said Grossman, who heads the regional ICAC, Internet Crimes Against Children, a multi-agency task force of local, state and federal law enforcement officers. "We looked at the site. It was child erotica. That is not illegal.

   "It's not (child) pornography," which is a crime, she explained.

 Grossman says the Facebook sites that appeared around Dec. 2 using students images, some of scantily clad girls from San Pedro and Banning High Schools, did appear to be "pure cyberbullying"; However, currently no laws exist to make it a crime or to give the agency teeth to force internet companies, such as My Space or Facebook, to pull such sites down.

   Facebook, however, was fully cooperative, she said.

  "We can't force them to take down the sites," Grossmann said. "It's up to Facebook. But once I contacted Facebook, they responded in one hour which is pretty good time."

   Grossman's task force covers five counties: Los Angeles, Santa Barbara, Ventura, Orange and San Bernadino. Crimes involving children on the internet, Grossman said, should be reported immediately to the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children which acts like a clearing house for such crimes and alerts local authorities in charge. For instance, if an internet pornography complaint came in to the National Center involving a child in San Pedro, Grossman said, her task force would be notified to investigate immediately.

   The task force also must report back to the center as to what happened with the case.

   The local issue erupted when the internet group San Pedro California began complaining about the sites saying they had "offensive," demeaning, and abusive photographs of girls from the area along with derogatory comments.

   Those commenting on the sites called some of the girls "hos" (whores) or claimed that some girls gave sex freely. While many in the California group reported their concerns to Facebook via the internet, the sites remained up until Los Angeles Councilman Joe Buscaino took a stance and called in Grossman's task force and other agencies to try and force their shut down.

   Facebook removed San Pedro Rachets, Wilmington Rachets and San Pedro Hotties from their pages, agreeing with Grossman and many of its complaining users that cyberbullying had occurred which goes against Facebook policies. Rachets, according to the Urban Dictionary, are a "diva, mostly from urban cities and ghettos, that has reason to believe she is every man's eye candy. Unfortunately, she's wrong."

   Buscaino, known for working closely with teens when he was an LAPD officer, said he considered the pages slanderous and abusive.

   While no laws exist now regarding cyberbullying, Grossman said, there are other laws that might fit but didn't work in this case. Laws specifically against cyberbullying eventually might be implemented, she said, especially since the topic has riveted the nation after several youths committed suicide who became victims of internet attacks.

   The Internet Crimes Against Children is a federally funded agency  that formed 61 national teams devoted to fight child exploitation via the internet and offers "reactive, proactive, and forensic investigations and criminal investigations," its site reports.

   Since its formation in 1998, the task forces have dealt with 280,000 complaints of alleged sex abuse against children and led to 30,000 arrests, according to the national Office of Juvenile Justice and Delinquency Prevention.

   The beauty of these agencies, Grossman added, is that internet crime is "everywhere," and it's not something that the Los Angeles police can deal with alone. Agencies had to join together to be effective, she said.

   The program offers training to agencies that might be involved including schools, Grossman said. In this instance the schools, Banning High and San Pedro High, would be responsible to carry out further investigation of who the perpetrators were that put up the sites.

   Internet users who believe they have concerns of child exploitation on the internet can report it too www.missingkids.com or call  1-800-843-5678.

Despite Shootings There Is Still Good in the World

In the Wake of the School Shootings, I'm Trying to Convince Myself that Anne Frank Was Right: Good People Are Still Out There

By Diana L. Chapman

First, a man shot his girlfriend to death on the street behind my house, then killed himself.

I knew him and his kids. I also knew that Johnny O'Kane's actions had torn away the tethers of humanity, leaving two families in utter despair.

Still, I believed. It seems ever since I read the Diary of Anne' Frank when I was 12, I trusted Frank's words she wrote before dying in the Holocaust that people were still good at heart. I believe that despite everything I've written and seen first as a journalist, now as a blogger, anything from murders, baby kidnappings to robberies. I believe that even now, with the horrendous shooting at a Newton, Connecticut elementary school where on Friday Adam Lanza, a 20-year-old, brilliant autistic man, burst into Sandy Hook Elementary and killed 20 children, ages 6 and 7, and six adults.

I believe this while knowing there have been a string of brutal attacks in China over the past two years where men have entered schools and literally chopped and hacked away at youngsters -- killing up to 21 and the youngest being four -- with weapons such as axes, hammers, cleavers and knives - the latest being the same day as Sandy Hook when a 36-year-old attacked children, ages six to 12 at a primary school --  succeeding in cutting off fingers and severing ears -- and seriously injuring two other students who remain hospitalized.

By now, as so many journalists are, I should be a cynical, skeptical woman who walks with a jaded heart and the piercing knowledge that the world, is in essence, upside down. I can't bear to think about the pain those Sandy Hook parents are suffering--tonight, in the morning and in every waking moment, knowing some of those tiny bodies were riddled with more than 11 bullet holes from an assault rifle.

But here I am still clinging to Anne's words, statements she started penning at age 13 while in hiding from the Gestapo, some of which are like pulling on a quilt of warmth and soothing protection.

"It's really a wonder that I haven't dropped all my ideals, because they seem so absurd and impossible to carry out," Anne wrote in her diary while her Jewish family lived in unbearable conditions during World War II. "Yet I keep them, because in spite of everything, I still believe that people are really good at heart."

Once her family and others were discovered, they were forced into concentration camps where nearly all their lives were extinguished, including Anne's. Her father, Otto, survived, found his daughter's diary and shared it with the world.

There must be a reason he did that -- a reason for us to lay our heads on when the world has once again gone "crazy" as she says and worked its way into another one of its darkest corners in history. We've been layered with tragedy upon tragedy across our country.

Rampaging gunmen repeatedly committed shootings of the innocents in the past six months alone; two adults killed this week in an Oregon Mall as people shopped for the holidays; 70 shot and 12 killed in July at a Colorado theater as movie-goers settled into a night of watching good versus evil in the new Batman flick -- and now the perilous attack at Sandy Hook Elementary in Connecticut.

But there were so, so many even before that.

It seems we are not any closer to an end of this insane mayhem and misery, horror tilting our nation repeatedly to yet another disaster and now we've lost Noah, Emilie, Catherine, Jessica, Olivia, Ana, Jessica and 13 other elementary students who will never celebrate another Christmas, another birthday or read another book.

If we listen to Anne, it is time to change. It's time to commit to gun control. It's time to give support to families dealing with the horrors of mental illness and not just run away. We can no longer wait.

The deaths, especially of such little children who were just beginning to flourish and bloom like beautiful cherry trees, defies our sensibilities.

"There is an urge and rage in people to destroy, to kill, to murder," Anne wrote, "and until mankind, without exception, undergoes great change, wars will be waged, everything that has been built up, cultivated and grown, will be destroyed and disfigured, after which mankind will have to begin all over again."

With all our rage and grief, we might want to reflect back on the wisdom of Anne, who seemed to grasp and comprehend matters beyond her years. "How wonderful it is that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world."

We  no longer need to wait. We need to take advantage of those that are still good at heart that are left in the world.

Take for instance, Gene Rosen, 69, a grandfather and retired psychologist, who found six small children huddled in his driveway immediately after the Sandy Hook shooting who told him they couldn't go back to school because their teacher had been shot. They had escaped, a boy told him.

Rosen didn't wait even though he didn't know exactly what happened. He took the children into his house, gave them toys and juice and listened to their stories about their teacher being shot. He called every one of their parents, who came and picked them up.

He later blubbered on the air about how brave the children were and how he hoped to see, cherish and hug them all again. He said he loved them.

Rosen is the reason I still believe in Anne's words. He gives me hope. And "Where there's hope," Anne wrote, "there's life."